Love

Love. That word is heavy and loaded. Have you ever really thought about that that means? I've asked God to show me how to love him. I know it sounds strange. But I know how to make it look like I'm in love with Christ and I do Love Him, it's just I'm not in love and I want to be. I want to be crazy in love for Christ. At the same time, I'm so scared of that love. I don't know what it entails and what He'll do in my life.

However, I've had many gifts the last week or so since I've started praying this.

Today while I was a the laundromat I had a wonderful conversation with a guy who I thought was a bit off, only at first though. It was just him and I there and I was folding clothes by then. I didn't really want to talk to him but I had this nagging inside of me that I should. I finally broke the ice and we ended up having a lot in common. We are both Christian, same denomination, we both knew people from each others church's and he was all around a good guy. At first, our conversation was me just listening to him because he needed someone to talk to about his condition which I was happy to do. It clicked right when I started talking to him that my nagging was God leading me. After I left, I was filled with so much joy that I could give my gift of conversation to someone and knowing that it was all lead by God was such a blessing and gift from him. I know it seems like any old conversation but I smile when I think about it.

Thank you, Lord.
Your gifts,
blessings,
and teaching.
I'm learning slowly to really be in love with you.
You're always faithful
You have me in awe all the time.
Send your Grace
Send your mercy
Humble me, please.
In Jesus's name, Amen